It's funny how at times you can make yourself feel at ease with pain in your life. You can either ignore it and keep it in, one day exploding in the faces of the ones you love the most. OR, you can let it out by other means. Just strange to me how I was on the phone w/ someone saying what a great week I was having and as soon as I disconnected, I realized that wasn't the case...I was sad, angry, emotional, etc all rolled into one tremendous BALL OF ENERGY! Sometimes it's just easier to say "I'm fine" than what you're really feeling inside.
I'm better now...at least I tell myself that.
I really miss Archie. The last two weeks, he's really been on my mind. It's hard to think of him as not earthly anymore. I felt his presence strongly on Saturday...it eased my mind. I love him. What's amazing is that even more so, I feel that he really is watching over us. It breaks my heart that I can't hear him or see him...the pictures make it a little more bearable, but it's just...
a hard week.
