Hard week...

It's funny how at times you can make yourself feel at ease with pain in your life. You can either ignore it and keep it in, one day exploding in the faces of the ones you love the most. OR, you can let it out by other means. Just strange to me how I was on the phone w/ someone saying what a great week I was having and as soon as I disconnected, I realized that wasn't the case...I was sad, angry, emotional, etc all rolled into one tremendous BALL OF ENERGY! Sometimes it's just easier to say "I'm fine" than what you're really feeling inside.

I'm better now...at least I tell myself that.

I really miss Archie. The last two weeks, he's really been on my mind. It's hard to think of him as not earthly anymore. I felt his presence strongly on Saturday...it eased my mind. I love him. What's amazing is that even more so, I feel that he really is watching over us. It breaks my heart that I can't hear him or see him...the pictures make it a little more bearable, but it's just...

a hard week.

Girl's Night Out

Fun times! Me and Tami went out to Bonzai and to do a little shopping! It was FUN! YUMMY sushi and not so yummy hats...

Jason, me, Lisa, Tiger, and Shane. Shane is my first cousin; we grew up basically as brother and sister. I miss spending time with him. He and Lisa are expecing their first child and just found out it is a GIRL! I'm so happy for the both of them.

Me and my amazing mother, Kathy. I love her so much. She's strong, intelligent, beautiful, and a wonderful mom.

Wow, this week has been a tough one. I had a root canal on Tuesday which went pretty well considering it was a ROOT CANAL! Today, I can taste the medicine that Dr. Etherton packed in the tooth which is gross. It reminds me of when I had braces and I could taste the glue that they used...YUCKY!

I've dealt with some struggles this week that I conquered praise my God! How wonderful Jesus is to love us unconditionally and accept us as we are. I feel so unworthy of His love, attention, and forgiveness. I compare His love to a warm bankie (blanket) on a winter's day as you have nothing to do, but sit at home wrapped up sipping on some yummy hot coco (or Diet Coke).

A very good friend of mine, Taylor.

Lately, I've thought how lucky we are to have friends in our lives. It seems to be the same old cliches, but think of how awful life would be without them.

I am thankful for so many people in my life. They are each there for a different purpose. I often think about how God hand-picks each person that comes in our lives to be there not only for a reason, but to teach us some things as well.

I love my friends.

Tribute to Archie Coker

Arch, you never called me your stepdaughter; just your daughter

Arch, you loved me unconditionally
and you are so missed

Arch, you raised my brothers with love, laughter, ball, and poker

Arch, you loved my Mama and I thank you for everything

Arch, you taught me so many interesting things and made me laugh so many times

Arch, I love you forever just because

I love you~Sis

I love my brothers! They are so handsome, talented, and outgoing.

Wednesday

So, yesterday went to the dentist and discovered that I need a root canal! That is not necessarily my cup of tea. However, I was semi-pleased that insurance pays 80%, so my part will be $184.00. I actually took 1/2 of one of the pain killers (Lorcet) yesterday at work and it did not settle too well w/ me. I just can't take pain pills...or drink...or do anything really illegal, which is all good. I thank God that I'm the person that I am in all honesty.

He has brought me through a lot, especially since losing my stepfather, Archie, three weeks ago...the presence is so strong and it makes me think HOW COULD ANYONE NOT BELIEVE IN GOD? I'm so proud of my brothers. My mama is wonderful too. I want to be there for them and be someone that they can lean on completely.

Well, I'm off to do my daily tasks and then some. Hope everyone has a wonderful day!

First Entry (Tired)

So, this is my 1st time "blogging" and I hope to keep this up-to-date as a constant reminder to myself of things I've been through & things I've yet to see.